"If being sane is thinking there's something wrong with being different... I'd rather be completely fucking mental" -Angelina Jolie

Hey Friends!! Alot of people have been inquiring about the Somebody To Love Video, and I wanted to let you know that it IS coming! We're re-shooting some of it to make sure it comes out perfect! Our goal is to have it out by the New Year. I can't wait for you to see it!! pnɐɥϽ ☦

Back from Miami safe and sound. Had a blast! You can't beat a place that has such great weather, awesome people and beautiful beaches you can use year around! Halloween in Miami is a two day event and it is CRAZY....I mean they go ALL night!! Truly a fabulous place to go and party! The flight home was a little smoother this time too.

In Miami! Well worth the flight but really, so sick of small planes and bumpy landings. I know that it's just part of flying and it shouldn't bother me, but ever since a really bad landing in Vegas my flight anxiety has gone through the roof!!

Watching celebrity Ghost Stories. Hearing peoples experiences with the paranormal has always fascinated me. I definitely believe there is a lot more out there than we know, and the little tastes some get of it every once in a while are just the tip of the iceberg. There's this life and then what happens after that? Is this it or is there more? I'm dying to know. Not anytime soon of course!

http://ping.fm/CxKSn I think this is addictive. I think I have a sickness. I think time has gone by and i've been asleep under the influence...

In my opinion to constantly repress the "dark" side of ourselves is to unknowingly feed a deep desire to want to use it more than anything, which then creates a struggle in our everyday lives of trying to be one thing while hiding another. To learn how to co-exist with your dark side is to exist at your full potential. Trying to control it only makes it stronger. For some people heaven is hell. Accept who you are.

Chaud: When translated means HOT in French. Ooo La La! No. But really, a lot of people think I call myself Chaud because I think I'm a sexy bitch. Though I work towards achieving this elite status daily, this is not the reason for my name. Chaud=Hot. Things that are hot cause a series of sensations that are anywhere from enjoyable like a hot summer day to violently uncomfortable like a fire, and that's me in a nutshell. My personality IS that extreme. Normal? Maybe not, but me regardless. Never cold. Relentlessly (and sometimes recklessly) Chaud. ;-X

I wasted loads time trying to be accepted by those I believed were going to somehow better my life. When I realized only I can do that; I'm now playing catch up, but catching up fast indeed bitches!

PLEASE give our soldiers the respect they deserve! They are fighting for YOUR safety, to protect your rights, so you can sit at home on your ass and plan your hateful funeral protests. You don't like it? Go to Afghanistan and fight for your own rights....you want to do that?? Didn't think so.

Daily

I have people telling me I suck daily. Thats fine. I'm all for freedom of speech, so here's some for you VERY bored people. Focus your energy on and do something w/ your F#$%ED up, Lame A$S life. Wasting time saying stupid Sh$T to me won't get you anywhere. And at the end of the day you still suck and i'm still in your dreams. Enjoy!

A Black Market Life...

Life is interesting isn't it? Early in my youth I remember trying so hard to fit in, and for what? So more people would "like" me? So I would be more "popular?" Looking back it was a sad time in my life because I was rejecting myself. I lived everyday for other people who could give a fuck less about me, and as a result I wasted so much time. As the black rose emerged so did the thorns, but as those thorns protect me so do they cut me just as quickly. I don't know what life is. I don't know what love is. The one thing I know the most about is ME. Learning to be myself, whether that be a good Chaud or a bad Chaud, learning not to be ashamed of what my past has made me has created my philosophy in life. Everyday is about one thing and one thing only, pleasing yourself first. Because if I'm not happy, I feel really bad for those close to me. I live my life on the black market. It's better that way. Join me?

Love,

Chaud

A Pic A Photographer Snapped of Me On New Years Eve Made Local News!

A Pic A Photographer Snapped of Me On New Years Eve

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